foreverAmBri

 2/8/2025 Yesterday was very difficult for me because of the finality of you going out of my life hit me very hard. There was always this little hope in my heart that we will weather this storm and will be back together but I guess you’ve had enough. I never thought in my wildest dreams that US will end some day because I always believed that no matter what happens, US will never end. But I guess that is how life is. Every day brings something new. Something that makes us happy and something that disappoints us. We have to sift through each day and pick up the best every day has to offer. Yesterday a good thing happened to me was the fact that I learnt my lesson. Nothing is permanent. Life is unpredictable and while that brings anxiety, it also brings hope that tomorrow will be better. I’ve been thinking about our last 4 years of togetherness which brought a lot of love and happiness to both of us while being very difficult on us. It broke us apart. It brought us together. It g...

  When did we begin ? Was it on July 21 st 2021 or was sometime in 2016 ? I don’t know. I will let you decide. It was 2016 when I first came across your profile on FB. I didn’t come across it by mistake or by chance. I was told by someone to look at it and share my opinion about you. I had no business doing that but it was a friend of your friend who had asked me to do it so I went through your FB profile and I was struck by your personality, style and aura. Well I gave her my reading about you and she told me that I was right on many counts just by looking at your profile. Well that said lot of things happened in my life and lot of things happened in yours (this ofcourse I came to know after we became friends) and suddenly it was April 2021. One fine morning I was on my regular run and I got a message from your friend. She said she wanted to talk to me and I was surprised why would she want to talk to me after so many years.  I remember the conversation like it was yes...

  5/8/2025 Our friendship started innocently enough. The first 2 days was all about me starting your healing and asking you routine questions about your feelings and emotions. It was clear to me that you were hooked on to me in no time. As was I. I was looking for excuses to text you during the day and to talk to you about how your day went and how the healing was affecting you. Here, I have to say that was being a total hypocrite. I had told your friend that I don't want anything to do with you other than healing and I should have stuck to that. The problem is, I just let myself go down a slippery slope.  There were times when you would get happy and times when you were emotional as your story unfolded. I was happy to send you healing and discovering one more thing about you every day. Though I was acting in the capacity of your healer, I knew that I was completely drawn to you. Like a moth to fire. I never realized that I would burn so badly. But to be honest with you, t...

7/08/2025 I don’t know how else to describe it other than Honeymoon that we had. But before I talk about that, I need to tell you that it isn’t getting any easier my love. Every day I start with a promise to myself that today I am not going to let your absence affect me. But it does. And I have this deep ache inside of me that I can’t explain. And I can’t share it with anyone because no one will understand. After it was established that we’re a couple now, we started addressing each other as ‘My love’ I know it was pretty cheesy but then I was in love with you and I’d never felt this way before. Honestly speaking, I had swung the bat way over my capacity. Not just your looks but your creativity, your persona, your achievements, everything about you was top notch. And I was floating in air… that the most beautiful woman I’d ever laid my eyes on was mine. I think it was 4-5 days that we were in this zone and you said that you had to travel for work to my city. By this time, we had st...

19th August 2025 Hi My love, sorry there was a long gap between the last post and this one. I was tied up with work and missing you every moment of every day! I had again come to your city for a few hours. This time I was lucky though, I was able to handle my visit a little better compared to last time because I knew that you aren’t in town. You are on a holiday abroad with your family. Our first meeting on 21 st of September or was it 24 th , I don’t remember exactly but I am sure it was one of these 2 days and was nothing short of magic. Every time I think about the first meeting, it fills me up with lot of love and a lot of regret. Regret because what followed after a few months was a rollercoaster of emotions for both of us and trust me, I didn’t want you to ever go through what you experienced because of our relationship. If I could somehow undo that, I would gladly do it. Life is strange. We experience things and situations when we least expect them. I guess that’s the beaut...

  27 th August 2025 The first time we had trouble was around November 2021 I distinctly remember that I was in Hyderabad with family because that’s when my son had secured admission in college.   We went to Hyderabad as a sort of a reunion with this friends with 3 other families also joining in. So practically we were about 12 people in a small 3 BHk house where I just couldn’t log in to my hangouts account because that’s where we used to chat most of the time. I informed you that I can’t chat but you got a severe anxiety attack. This was the first of the many times when you had this anxiety attack and I was completely taken aback. You were constantly typing gibberish on the hangouts window which I really couldn’t make out. Your hands were shaking, you were weeping and I just couldn’t understand what the hell was going on. A slight back story here is in order. When I started the healing, you told me that you were on anti-anxiety and some sleeping pills because you used ...

 29th August.  Hi my love. Sorry about being a little dramatic with the title here but I couldn't think of anything better. So just to continue from the previous post, everything was absolutely hunky dory in our world  but I couldn't have been more wrong.  It was the calm before the storm. A storm that would destroy my peace and make me crazy. By that I mean actually mentally unstable. So it was in November 2022 some 6 weeks after your return and you had come down to my place for a day trip. After an amazing love making session, you told me about an incident that happened with you at the airport. And I didn't know how to react or what to make of it.  You : 'Love today at the airport a strange incident happened. There was a young couple sitting opposite and they seemed so lovey dovey together. But I had a strange feeling.' Me : ' What strange feeling?' You : ' Something was telling me that this guy is cheating on his wife. So when I saw the girl alone, I ...