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10th September 2025


This is a true story about 2 people. Both of them married for 20+ years. Both of them having a son each. Both the kids are studying Abroad. The story isn't about why they are not happy in their marriages. The story is about how they met and how they fell in love. How they corrected the course of each other's lives. How they fought. How they threw away everything beautiful that they had built between them. 

The possibility of them meeting in this lifetime was as remote as humans meeting beings of another planet. From the moment they met to the moment they broke up, story is full of twists and turns a total rollercoaster ride if you will. 

I started writing on the 2nd of August and ended all the posts on 9th September. But because Blogspot takes the latest post on top, I manually changed the publishing date of each post. 

Start from 1 and read through to 9. 

Read the story, enjoy,  feel free to leave comments! 

Cheers! 


13th Sep 2025

Random Musings... I don't have an instagram account but you know that i've been stalking your account anonymously for the the past 4 years whenever we break up. I was just going through some old posts again, every post brought back the memory of our conversations associated with those posts. When we aren't together, I just see your posts and feel happy.. some sort of a connection between us. And when we get together, we discuss about every picture.. where it was taken... and what did you do and whom did you meet. Its like reliving every moment of your every trip.

The pain has certainly reduced. I've been reading up on how to come out of such a break up and every post, every reel or self proclaimed therapists say that one shouldn't stalk SM posts of one's ex because it causes deep pain and it doesn't help in moving on. 

Well in a manner of speaking, I don't want to move on. I don't want to replace you in my life. I've always said that its either YOU or nobody. And I intend to keep it that way. Sometimes I wonder, why the fuck do I behave like this ? That's because I promised you love that I will never be with anyone else in this lifetime. To be honest, it was a bit difficult in the beginning when I was in too much emotional pain and turmoil. But at the moment that has reduced and I don't feel the need to  fill my life with any one else. 

They day I stop pinning for you, is the day this relationship dies forever. 

If you plan to kill this relationship forever, do let me know so atleast I stop pinning for you. 

So atleast I move on from this feeling. Atleast I don't wait for you to come back. 

Anyways.. you stay happy and stay safe. 

Love you. 

September 20. 

Yesterday, I was called to give a talk to a group of young employees of a very large company. It was my first time ever in that kind of a setting and I really had a very good time doing it. If you don't come back, thats fine love. Because it has given me a purpose in life. 

October 7, 2025

It has been more than 2 weeks that I wrote something here. I have stopped stalking your social media completely. The reason is, I don't want to see your posts. The last post I saw was your Navratri reel where you were invited as a judge for 2 competitions I think. I cannot handle this at all. But I am handling it. The urge to check your SM is very hight but i am not doing it. Because I see it in your eyes that you are looking for something/someone. Atleast that's what I would like to believe. 

I was in Mumbai for a day. Had 2 meetings and then went to pune for one more meeting. But honestly, I didn't feel as bad as before because I realized that i cannot stop coming to Mumbai if I have work just because you live there. I know that  i am never going to bump into you randomly because I don't come towards your side of town. Infact I was there once when i came to pick up my wife on 2nd september and I crossed your building. I knew you were there somewhere or may be you hadn't returned from your own trip abroad. Life without you is tough no doubt. But it is even tougher with you around. Things are better in the sense that I am clear about what I don't want in my life. 

I don't want the pain, the drama, the distrust the anger and the constant connect. In an ideal world, what i want is this .. 

Love and trust between us. If i say that i am busy in a meeting you have to believe that i am in a meeting. If I tell you that i am going to Delhi/jaipur/ludhiana for work then you should believe thats what exactly I am doing and nothing else. If i tell you that you are the only one for me in this lifetime, then please believe that. My only focus in life is to grow my company to 100 Crores in 3 years and keep it ready when my Son comes back from US so that he can build on that legacy and take it to wherever he takes it. 

But despite everything, I really want to thank you for walking out of my life because it really helped me to get my priorities sorted in life. I love you too much and can never forget you. No matter what happens. 

Yours Forever. 

11th October 2025

It is your birthday month and i am really confused about whether to wish you or not. But i have promised myself that i will not wish you because I really don't know how you will react. The fact that I miss you very much hasn't changed at all. You are living your life and i am living mine. It is a matter of time that our paths cross. Life is really boring at the moment. No travel. No one to talk to. No parties. I don't know how I am going to pass this time. These are dark times for me but still i am hanging in there. Reiki, divine and the universe are with me. Thank you for showing me this path. 

Love you forever. 

14th October 2025

I don't know why I have this huge rock on my chest since last 2 days. I am trying hard but I can't seem to stop thinking about you. What is it that is screwing me up so badly ? Why am I feeling this helpless ? Well whatever it is, I am staying away from stalking you on Insta or FB. Please enjoy your life to the fullest and thank you for messing me up so badly that I am feeling lost. 

love you forever 

I am not writing the date here but it is your birthday today. I wished you. You didn't respond. Perfectly alright. I am praying to the divine to get me out of this feeling 🙏. Hopefully someday this pain will cease. 


Love you forever 😘 

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